Jan 18, 2010 5:37 AM
I do really feel stupid these days . Stupid really .
This may be the boring of them all posts i had got so far . But I do still want to blog about it . I don't know how many people read my blog posts , but hell do I care .
This may be the boring of them all posts i had got so far . But I do still want to blog about it . I don't know how many people read my blog posts , but hell do I care .
1 - I think I still have not gotten over Yan .
Might sound stupid . But YES ! People do tell me what would I get for not forgetting him . Reminiscing times I spent with him. Matters of the heart , really at times got all over your brains till that you can have a retard brain like I do have right now, this moment . Retard brain .
2 - What is there to think about him ?
Definitely nothing . BUt, everything just seems to remind me of him . Like that Nyonya just now I saw along the street . We used to disturb the old aunties we saw . Yes, retarded kids .
Sharing of problems together . We can communicate , yes .
A lot more .
3 - If not for those words that effink came out from your mouth .
Yes , if it is not about those effink words that came out right through the hole of your own mouth . Haiz . Told me we can share difficult times together . Used to pester me to share my problems , but right when you got your own huge problem you just won't share . Leave . Alright, I do forget that part coz you were under stress and things with family . But what was your motive, meeting me up with a friend of yours and "hand-me-over" to your friend ? Wtf Pa ? I am not a thing .Definitely not a THING . Its like I just ate a yummy looking puff but its all rotten in the inside . I felt sick . Right through down my stomach . You left me with no explanations but there stood another stranger whom you claimed that he was your bestfriend, and that he was good .
Wat thafff ?!
4 - Another stranger .
After handing over me to your so called good friend, I saw another stranger beside you . Wow . Great . Haha . Speechless .
5 - Tumbling down right back .
Now, you are running back towards me . It is too late . Definitely late . I am that "thing" you used to "give" to another person . And now , this "thing" has already being thrown to somewhere . This "thing" will not ever come back to you .
6 - Human
I am an effink human for god's sake . Not a "thing" . Notice that I kept on repeating the word "thing" . You people do find it a nuisance right ? So do I .
7 - Stupidity
I am stupid to even accept you in the first place . I should have just told Ashraf to pick the call up and told him to stop calling me . There's actualli much more to what he's done to me . But let it just be this way . Worst things are kept confidential . This is the least that he had done . Thats all I can tell for now . My Mommy's definitely already is against him. The whole family does . Why didn't I heed their advices . Stupid of me . Yes .
Therefore, I conclude that I am stupid !
