Pathetic Sick Mode
I had been missing out a lot of quality time with family and friends . To friends, I am sorry , I can't get out of my house for some reason . I am sick . It had been weeks actually . I just tried to put up with it . But I couldn't take the pain any longer . Yes , I may sound cheerful with you people online and stuff . The only thing that could make me forget about the pain . That is also partly the reason why I can't work . Momma told me to sit at home and get everything cured . Once all done , I can continue working . Sad thing isn't it . Going for another check up soon . Mom wanted to bring me to the hospital . Well, I don't wish to go . Normal clinic is fine for me .
As long as I have those pain killers .
The last time I felt I was fine was the Chalet + BBQ with family . After those 3 days , I kinda like felt so so weak . Medication's running out . That was partly the reason why I've been sleeping a lot these days . I think Lucy's noticed it . If ever I was awake during the day . It would only be for a few hours and I'm gone sleeping again . Cooking's done - I sleep . I know friends would definitely said its the "Lazy" sickness . Well, its not . I know how limited my laziness could be . The pain is killing me . The people who knows how painful it is , is definitely my family . Mom and brothers . I'm the kind of person who can definitely tolerate pain . You can punch me, pinch me or anything . But these pain is definitely unbearable . Family's seen my crying like everyday for these days . I don't wish to see any friends for the time being . I am sorry if I don't pick up calls or replied to your messages . I am definitely not fine . I don't wish for people to see me in this state . Coz , this Aniza right now , will not be the cheerful one if I were to go out with you people . I do not wish to spoil whatever outings coz of my stupid pain which tends to come and go anytime it felt like it .
It's controlling my body . I felt that way . Wish could control it . But everytime I did , it gets worst . Seriously , I had never cried in pain like the way I did now .
Once, I think that the pain is gone . And I am able to bear with it . I will meet you guys again .
Sorry if you people feel like I'm ignoring you guys .
Take care people . Don't get sick like me .
Pain is killing me .
