Aug 15, 2008 3:02 AM
2 weeks of posting to the IMH had really opened my eyes. Life isn't all great to some people. Some thinks that life is meaningless when some problems occured. But, little that they realised that a lot of others living around them suffered even more and they are trying to live to the fullest but they can't.
Now comes to the more sadder part. Had this patient that has just been admitted into the ward. a Malay guy, he is quite young. I was curious as usual,as to why he was admitted into this ward i'm posted at. So i sat down with him and played cards,Bingo and stuffs. We talked over the games and i asked him why he was admitted. He told me that its coz that he was hearing voices when he was alone and he threw one of his furniture. His mom then sent him there.
He told me he started to become stressed up when his mom started to scold him and stuff and after knowing his health condition was deteriorating. Why the hell did people tell him about his condition, knowing that he have this unstable mental state and knowing that telling him this will further bring him down. ?! He told me the doctor told him that he only had 6 months to live and he was stressed and thinking about it. He also told me that he is trying very hard not to think about this and he is controlling whatever voices he heard in his head and asked me why of all his siblings he is the only one with a lot of health problems. At that point of time when he asked me that, I swear i felt like crying. As he was having his tea break,eating biscuits, i sat down with himm and this other patient. We told him to eat and not think about his problem. I saw him holding back his tears and just nod his head slowly.
For a moment, that really made me sad somehow. I miss my dad even more. I remembered telling that to my late dad before. Sometimes, i guess, we just have to pretend that we have not much problems and be happy spending time with the others.Life is short, so share all the happy moments while you still hav the time. Small problems should not make it like a big issue. Coz there are others who have a larger issue in life..
Okie.. Tata titi tutu..
MembebeL plaK aKu nieh..!
xP..
