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May 5, 2008 9:20 PM

EverYthIng seeMs to Go aGainst Me...!!!!

Well, here it goes..I didnt sleep through out last night. I am tired. Yes! I am sleepy. But i can't sleep. I think i have to admit myself to hospital sooner or later for sleeping disorder.. I'm serious. I'm waiting for the holidays. If this is not improving.. I'm really gonna admit myself to the hospital. I need long sleep man.. My situation had been deteriorating badly enough that i cannot even close my eyes to sleep. My eyes are killing me each day. And i'm only sleepy during the day! What the hell is happening to me?!

Okie,everiwan, my blog's quite dull. My comp been lagging i cant even upload pictures into it. I swear to get it done over with..Its dull without pictures man! Have to Have pictures!!Well, i wasnt actually late today. But somehow i missed the latest bus.. And i took the 7am bus..Okie i was freaking late.. Once i reached tampines, i went down and hail a cab..This fucking nabeh uncle was really a pain in the ass man!! I told him to be fast and took the short way.. He actualli took a MF way!! wat the hell is this??!!! I was freaking pissed.. I reached school 8 on the dot. I waas running for my life trying to catch up.. Okie...I reached there before the lesson start. Cool bitch! Niwae, it does pay to be late. I saw Vitamin R also in the bus..Hehe..I was told then i was to see Leonard after lecture along with sheila and pushpa.. I knew this would be regarding the debarrment thingy.. It really ruptured my heart and it really make me feel damn exhausted and tired.. I dunnoe why.. I just did felt that way..

I dun feel like updating my blog really.. I feel really low. Down and under.. I don't understand why must they talk about my father.. Why in the first place must they bring that issue up?? I dun wanna go for counselling. I don't need one.. I hate it.. I had forgotten the last day that i cried till today.. They made me cry.. I hate them.. I really hoped with that appeal letter i will be able to take the exam..This is too much for me too take.. Its invalid man..I did not go to school for a happy reason.. I was sick for god sake.. I have the prove man!! Why cant you just don't believe me!! I;m sick to my stomach!!

please god help me..
i really feel down and low
its totally not me
i dun wish to be like this
i hate m this way
i cant fake my expression
help me..
pasrah seh...